Rant

This does not looks like a good start to 2011 professionally. Slow change in senior leadership which started last year end and slowly trickling down. Today reached the level which it directly impacts what I work on.
Not feeling too happy about it.
And on a separate note, feeling that I am slowly becoming a slave of consumerism.
Wondering how needs and desires transform into one another. Hoping they are reversible in my case.
Are they ?

Acetone

So today, I decided that my laptop needs some heavy duty cleansing. If I had a choice I would dip it in a big bucket of warm water with strawberry fragrance, scrubbed it followed by blow dry. Given that its winters perhaps applied some moisturizer in the end, to keep it smooth.
Luckily, I discovered an old bottle of nailpolish cleaner and before you know it, the bottle was empty.
My laptop is sparkling now, almost like Edward.

Posessions

I do not have you.
I had this but its no more the same.
I had this but it is gone now.
Was I never worthy of it?
What I have, will it go away?
I should'nt have made this decision in the first place.
I could have better.
Everybody else gets it, why don't I ?
Do I lose more that I gain?
I am dependent on this and that, and I know all this and that will cease to exist?
AM I THE CHOSEN ONE?
AM I THE UNLUCKY ONE?

Transformation - Abstract

Abstract - Acrylics on Wooden Panel

I feel like this

relatives and their constant yapping - grrrrrr